Dale,
I know you're not looking for sympathy or anything, but I honestly am sorry to hear that you got into your current position. I feel for you man! Not that any of it is a good thing, but we can all learn a lesson from your mistakes here. Thanks for sacrificing yourself Dale! Just kidding man!
Thanks for all the information, support, and good times. Also, thanks for the life lessons for a trading life. I hope you're able to get into a good position again. Hell, you're Dale, I know you can. You're strong and can bring yourself back up!
I wish I could offer some advice or anything, but all I can say is, never give up. And especially, never give up on playing music. You should take some time and jam. Do you have recording software/hardware or any means of recording? You could just throw some stuff together and record something... that always helps me. Putting my mind into creating music gets me away from the things going on in life. A nice escape that keeps your mind working.
Keep on rockin' man! See you on the stage! And hopefully back here soon.
peace