psyche
I've been live trading for two weeks now, and I've already seen my ups and downs. I didn't care if things could go south when I was demo-ing ... but now every move is questioned by myself.
I am hedging currecy pairs with a high swap. I started with a high note and increased my account by 23% the first week. I felt a little sad because if my broker had gotten my money in my account a little faster, I would have doubled that increase, but I was still excited about the increase. This second week has been hell ... I've had a drawdown of over 30%. I didn't have problems during my demo-ing, but now that actual money is on the line, my confidence is shaken. I watched as my pairs were not corellating well, and my draw down was getting worse daily.
Things are already showing signs of turning around, so my confidence is building onace again. I am hoping that when (notice I said WHEN) I get through this minor hiccup in the market, my confidence will increase.
My wife can tell how my account is going just by watching my stress levels. I am hoping to learn to hide that stress, and eventually remove it.
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