No need to be confused 
All I’m saying is that if you feel emotional about trading, it’s going to affect your profit/loss detrimentally.
I see you got it, but give it a few more months and I think you might just find that you won’t be controlling your emotions, they won’t be there really, trading will become just something you do to make money, just like being in any other job after a while, it becomes sort of mundane, what won’t be mundane are the profits you’ll be making.
It sure beats working.