Well, the main reason it is because it’s what i’ve always wanted to do, but back then it was not so easy to do so and after September 11th I declined for a while. Anyway i had that oldfashioned mindset that studying hard will eventually would get me a high salary job, well i have one now but i don’t like it anymore.
I am not against the formal education but let’s face it it sucks, the whole system sucks and our parents still belive in that BS. They forgot that education is a tool not a mean. Let’s go back to our childhood, i must warn you, if you are nostalgic this post is not for you. Let’s go back to the days when we used to belive everything was possible, our parents had great jobs and we admired them and the world was the safest place. Whe used to go with our parents to the supermarkets full of choices that eventhought our parent didn´t wanna buy but we used to say “when i grow up i’ll get one”, when toy shops had tons of toys for you to want them all. WHen TV was full of entertaining TV Shows and they all were original, my favourite: Woody Woodpecker.
The forgotten crisis in 1997 came but the only affected were the third class countries and so nobody cared about but whe it came back in 2008 it only affected first class countries and now everybobdy cared about except poor countries. And then Sept 11th happened and all our believes went to hell in just one day, i still remember that day. Then we have realized we were living in a dream, our education system does nothing more than to harvest slaves who sells out for a slurp of soup, now we go to supermarket and there are just few options to chose, most brands we wanted to buy years ago now they are gone or have been bought by another brand. After graduate now we jump form one job interview to another one just to receive the same answer “You seemteh to be good but you are not what we need”. Now TV Shows are crap and a poor imitation of another TV show, cartoons are now joking with drugs, “different people” is allowed to serve openly in the army but children are not allowed to celebrate christmass in school. TV comercials are saturated with products we don’t need just like most credit cards commercials showing us endless opportunities inside a fancy house near to the lake, vehicles commercials and so on. I wonder, we are not screwed up enough to get a credit card? I wonder how many people can afford the houses shown in TV comercials and the worst of everything, everything is more expensive, it is harder to get a job and salary and wages are lower, cars are more expensive each day, so, why in hell vehicles companies do that, who can afford a car these days? “Oh let’s put our new car model in a TV commercial so the poor people watching TV buy one” Yeah sure. I used to have a car, it was too dam expensive, there was a season i had a lot of financial troubles that i had a fancy car parked in my yard because i could not pay for gasoline, the solution, i’ve sold out that crap, i almost gave it away, in fact the buyer still owes me some money, but i get rid of the problem, now i walk to my office and it is like 6 kilometers, 2,5 miles, i walk that distance four times a day, best excercise, cheaper than a gym, my co-workers makes fun of me, just like children making fun of the poor kid, because i have not a car, well, at least i don’t have debt troubles and i am proud of it. And today i’ve read an article about young fellows doesn’t wanna drive anymore, first reason, it is expensive, second one: we all hate traffic and driving licenses are harder to get. As i’ve mentioned cars are getting more expensive. By the other hand, technology industry is kicking butts, PC computers are more accesible now, cell phones are easier to get and have more functionalities and laptops are cheaper than 10 years ago. What do we ask now, when we go anywhere? The password of WIFI and we only need an internet connection ant the rest is up to our own imagination.
So why have i chosen to be a trader? Well, system sucks, and there are many workers but so less investors and business men and the system is not designed to create bussines men. Governments are more concerned about next elections and so they give away tax payers money for those who doesn’t work. Our family and friends they suck giving us support, they feel proud when we get a job. So i’ve chosen to be a trader because there is no light at the end of the tunnel, i am almost 30 and if i lose my job i will not get another one, my skills at the electric company are useless outside and i’ve forgoten what i’ve learned at university, my highly honored university degree will not help me anymore. And retirement plans, those are goverment swindles, it is discounted from my salary every month but i know i will not see that money ever again and that is my challenge to propere. I have chosen to be a trader because i cannot run a bussines such as a restaurant for example or a workshop, i am realy bad with people and administration drives my crazy, besides i don’t trust in people. For the other hand even thought trading is not easy, it does not demands perfection, being the average is the way to profit, my wife was angry because i was making money just like that, well honey, world is not a fair place, accept it, second, have you ever wondered the effort i’ve made to become a profitable trader? Are you aware of the everyday struggle traders mus do to keep themselves balanced?
So, when i have a series of loses and i wanna change my system, i just calm down, i’ve changed before, why changing again will help? I must relax because i have no choice, i must be a good trader and good traders have periods of loses, but the winners overrides the loses. I must remind that to myself everyday of my life. I will live from FX someday and then the pressure will be a little higher and so i must learn to keep cool with less pressure first.
I miss those days when everything seemeth to be possible, it is one of my goals to have them back.
Regards.
I do agree, i have money saved ready to use for a live account, but im not prepared to jump and go for 5 dollars a pip like the pro’s as i know im no-where near ready and i can accept a few dollars loss or profit per session at the moment but if i lost 100 dollars a time, when i know im just starting out i would be out of cash very quickly !! Right now my punishment is what ever i lose that is the money i would spend on cans of coke, chocolate while working, so im not loosing anything overall, but i am punishing myself to not lose and when i do starting winning i’ll enjoy my first chocolate bar !!!