Thank you for that response - it is appreciated.
You are right about everything.
Put it this way - I know that the position that I have landed myself in right now is not the right way to trade (although I have just closed all of my losing positions now at either break even or a slight profit. I only have one problem child left which is sitting at a $2.75 loss right now).
I just got into a situation at the beginning (or should I say second time round i.e. since last Friday) and panicked because I did not want to lose money again - especially since I was now trying to analyse things, read news, see the impact of news on the prices, look at indicators and market commentaries and what they meant and their impact on price etc. etc. and I was prepared to do anything not to lose more money and destroy whatever confidence I had left in this thing so I decided to hedge positions (although I know that that is not really what I was doing but sort of has the same effect) just to stay in the game - to buy me time to see what the next step was going to be and it has apparantely paid off.
Put it this way - with the amount of margin I have just given myself - I can get out of this situation with a nice profit now - but the last thing I want to do when I’m out is to say ‘well see - everyone else was talking nonsense - I came out fine. I’m the man’ simply because that is not the case. Once I’ve got rid of all of these positions I will then sit down and analyse where I went wrong, why I reacted the way that I did, and go from there.
My biggest problem - which has become very apparent to me - is my exit strategy. Basically - I don’t have one. I don’t like using ‘Stops’ because as I said before in a previous post my dealer rapes me when there is a ‘Stop’ or a ‘Trailing Stop’ in place although - in all fairness to GCI - this only happened on my beloved USD/ZAR pair - I have never tried to use ‘Stops’ while trading this pair (USD/JPY).
However - I don’t believe you can even think of using stops on a $500 account. I mean to say you don’t have to make very many consecutive bad calls in the wrong direction to wipe out your $500 because remember it is the spread that you are losing as well.
Maybe once I have closed all these positions I will have a look at using ‘Stops’ because I will now at least have a margin that can handle a couple of wrong moves and still stay in the game.
The thing that I battle with personally is losing money on a trade.
Let me put it this way - this should explain why I am like I am - and why I need to make a personal adjustment:
In sixteen years of business I never ever wrote anything off, passed a credit note, or anything like that - it was a principle that I learned from an old Jewish client of mine while I was doing my articles (I was to be become an auditor). This man sort of ‘took me under his wing’ as it were and taught me some valuable lessons that I have carried with me through life and I will never forget one lesson in particular:
One day he said he wanted to teach me something and took me to the gents toilet, took out a R10.00 note (ZAR) and threw it in the toilet. I looked at him as if he was going nuts - and he said to me ‘that is what happens when you pass a credit note or write off a debt’. I have never forgotten this - probably to my detrement in a few cases i.e. I know that in some cases it has cost me more to recover the amount outstanding than it would have cost by just writing the thing off. It was just a principle that I had. This principle I feel has to be re-evaluated now. I need to be able to say to myself ‘it is OK to make a small loss now - there will be profits to cover that loss soon’. I know that I have landed in this situation because I held on to losses not being able to bring myself to cut them loose and wait.
I also know that I have a long way to go to be able to say that I have now made a REAL profit - but on the other hand I think I have managed to learn a hell of a lot in a very short space of time and I also know that if it were not for responses like yours I would still be in the ****.
By the way - as we speak - I have managed to get rid of my problem child - no loss. Now - I just sit and wait for the 118 (hey that rhymes).
Have a nice day - wish me luck - happy trading!!!
Regards,
Dale.