You are applying the general rules of society to your trading.
Society tells us if we lose we are a failure and if we win we are a success.
[B]Get rid of it! It is counterproductive for your trading performance.[/B]
[B]The first thing I got taught when I started trading is to reward myself if I had a loss and do nothing if I had a winner.[/B]
To this present day I follow this rule without exception. With the result that I have never blown my account and my largest drawdown was 21,3%.
In any case, I am by no means giving up. This is what I want to do for the rest of my life. [B]I am reloading the account[/B]
I wouldn’t do that.
You are setting yourself up for your next blown account.
Your experience and feelings of personal failure need to be addressed.
You need to [B]reward[/B] yourself for your “failure”.
[B][I]After that you need a template and strategy worked out for your risk management with specific rules that are set in stone.[/I][/B]
One of the questions that you need to answer is what do I do if I have two losers in a row?
and
What is the max. drawdown of my account I can tolerate and what do I do when that happens?
Without answers to these questions you will most likely set yourself up for your “next personal failure”.
And after that you will be most likely part of a vicious cycle and you don’t even realize what is happening to you.