First of all you have a false understanding of what profitable trading really looks and feels like.
There is a degree of uncertainty and randomness in market movements which is reflected in virtually all trading systems. Even a coin flip random entry with 1:1 risk-to-reward will give a string of winners and a string of losers. Making several wins in a row with a coin flip doesn’t make you a genius and getting several losses in a row doesn’t make you an idiot. This is just how the probabilities play out.
Virtually all trading systems are also like a coin flip, but the coin is weighted to one side so that it gives more and/or bigger wins than losses over a long period of time, but there is still a string of losers. Your job as a trader is to expect, be ready for and to react to a string of losers. This is a skill that needs to be learned, losing traders don’t bother learning this skill, instead they hope that some “trading system” will do it for them, so they continue to lose.
You are also not going to make a living from this until you are well capitalized, my guess is $250k USD for low cost locations up to $1M USD to live comfortably in high cost locations. Inexperienced traders are often way too undercapitalized and then take on very large position sizes and too much risk in order to squeeze more out of the markets than could be safely expected from their account size. The trader’s #1 priority is to stay in the game over the long term especially during the losing streaks so that his/her system can take advantage of the winning streaks. But if the position sizes and risks are too large, the losing streaks will wipe you out before you can take advantage of the winning streaks.
If you still want to be a good trader then your focus for the next year needs to move away from trying to make money from the markets and towards learning and developing trading skills, e.g demo accounts / paper trading first then tiny position sizes, it needs to feel boring so that you can focus on learning without the emotional fog.
Rather than me repeat myself, here are links to some of my “greatest hits” where I go a bit deeper into this with other traders that had similar issues. Recommend you read the whole thread as there are multiple replies or not, up to you:
What profitable trading looks and feels like:
Reduce position sizes until winning / losing feels boring, then focus on learning:
Managing the downside:
Illusion of “trading knowledge”: