Thanks for providing additional details about your approach @ataw
We agree with you that people should only trade with risk capital: What currency pairs to trade in Forex for beginner traders?
But as you and @Falstaff both learned firsthand, extremely high leverage comes with extremely high risk.
Perhaps, it’s time to consider a different approach.
It sounds like you have $150 of risk capital per month. Consider saving this risk capital, and while it accumulates for six months to a year, you can practice a strategy on a demo account that lets you trade with $1000 to $2000. With that amount of risk capital, you can trade with less leverage, and risk a smaller percentage of your account per trade.