I, also after losing a small fortune by relying on commercial EA’s decided to come to a complete halt and start over, this time manual trading. What I have learned the last few years is merely background.
I would suggest you go through the school of pipsology - I thought I knew a lot, and boy… was I wrong.
Once you have figured out a strategy for yourself, open a live cent account (it immediately deals with the “real-money-psychology” then take it from there. As mentioned here by someone else, link this account to a analytic tool and analyze where you have gone wrong.
It certainly is not an easy road, many give up - but if you arm yourself with a lot of knowledge that you can apply, it can only go better…