Your weekly goal is 100%. This week you got 10%. What caused you to not get the other 90%? What’s happened over the past 3 years you’ve been in forex when you traded with these sort of goals?
Bottom line you’re risking way too much on each trade. Sooner or later you’re going to hit a patch where you get 5 trades wrong in a row. Your account will be down 50% at this stage. Let’s say it happens on week 1 and you go from 300 down to 150. Now just to get back to your original entry level you have to get 100% profit on your balance. What do you do at that point? You say you change your trade size - does that mean you increase the size to try and get back your losses more quickly? In the end you’ll just be putting yourself under more pressure to get a win and that’s not conducive to picking good entries. You’ve been here before where you’ve seen your account get busted in half by just a few trades right?
You seem to have a problem with discipline if I read between the lines of your first post correctly. You’re posting here to try and keep yourself honest but it won’t help when it comes to the psychological pressure you’re putting yourself under to try and achieve something in a timeframe it’s just not achievable in. I’ll say it again - large financial institutions and individual professional traders don’t turn this kind of profit and they’re guys who are totally wired into the market. It’s not to do with liquidity. You’re looking to get rich quick and it won’t work - it never works in the timeframe you’re looking at. The question isn’t why this isn’t possible. The question you should be asking yourself is why you think it is possible when nobody else seems to be able to manage it?
What’s the harm in giving yourself realistic goals to start off with? Lower your risk and see if you can get 1% or 2% per week. See if you can stay in the game for 6 months like that. With compounding and periodically adding to the balance with money from your job your account balance turns into serious money over the years. You won’t be a millionaire overnight but you could be in 10-15 years which would be ok right?