Hi Jay, again, thanks for your input, and again, your valuable time to write it all out.
Very gratefull…
Ok, I fully understand everything you layed out.
Every weekend, I have to “gather myself”, like a personal huddle, and hit the field running again.
Every weekend, I tweek the plan, or something of that nature. This weekend, I worked on Personal Mental actions.
So, I have made a game plan for this week. One being, clean up my basement, and build a dresser or something. Im a self taught wood craftsman, I like to make things like poker tables, or whatever comes to mind, but it gives me something to do, rather then sit here. But Ive put off cleaning and sorting out my tools for, Ummm, a year moreless, since starting FOrex.
So, now, I dont have free time, or, “nothing to do”, and its going to help me in the long run.
As far as my trading, Well, I dont really scalp anymore. Scalping, to me, is holding fear of lossing a pip. Cant be afraid… If my strat says, " 40 pips coming up", well, I need to get he 40 pips, in one run, and not take profit when I hit 2 pips in the bank,… It all boils down to “fear” of losing what I have, and that has to stop…
The 5 pip SL? Sounds great, and I tryed it… 5,7,9,11,13, pips even and trying that trick with Oanda, LOL, I get stopped out every time, its odd, but not…
and, thats basicly how I lost alot of my account, from SL hits and hunts.
I traded best, when I didnt use a SL… But, it seems to be a factor…
But also, my trading hasnt been the best as of late, concidering Thanksgiving, ( I cook it all ) and car problems, and neighborhood problems, ( 5 shootings average a week with-in blocks of my family) Not o mention the parking problems, Xmas is comin, just alot of crap, that shouldnt play a role in my success, but does. I dont have years, or Im going to crash. I need to move out of this place, and relocate my family to a safe place, and alot will ease off my mind. Im just gratefull my wife works, and stands by my side thru this. Its so bad around here, I dont even let my kids play outisde.
So, you see, this is why, I try 10% or 25% or whatever. Because I know the factors of Money, and it adds up fast, and I see the numbers. And its just out of reach…
The game isnt impossible, but when it seems life or death, everything gets a litle heavy, and Its on my shoulders right now, to make a change, because we live pay check to paycheck… Not o mention, my wife is a manager at a grocery store, and every gas station has been robbed at gun point in the area this month, so I have to worry about that everyday.
Now, one can say, WOW, thats motivating to " get my crap togehter", but really, its not that easy. Its like opening a 30 digit safe with a gun to your head, and you got 3 minutes to do it, in the dark…
I can make $1 million before May, and I will, Im confident in that. I just need to rewire my brain for the situation.
Yeah, Im strung out, You have no idea… Winter is setting in, Im not feeling so bad about it being 80 degrees outside, but My family is couped up in this 500sqft APT…
Im almost here Jay, I can taste it…And, if you Knew ME, You might be able to say" you know, you do have a chance,"
Im not your average “Joe”, I leave an impression when I meet people, You can kind of say, Im a throwback from the 1930’s and 40’s, you know, when people actually were human, If I could time travel, thats my date,
Im just really struglin Mentally right now,