Hey Drew, it is very courageous of you to post your experience and ask for help.
The one thing that a lot of people who decide to trade never consider is the psychological aspect, as well as impact, of trading. Trading activates aspects of the mind that deal with gain and loss (commonly referred to as greed and fear), these are very primal and hardwired aspects of the human psyche, meant to keep us safe. We feel good when we acquire something and we feel bad when we loose something, in this case, money. When you immerse yourself in such an environment like trading, you experience this on an intense basis and it becomes very hard to see things clearly. You vision will either be filled with hope or fear. Your body also produces a lot of adrenalin as you watch your account go from high to low and vice versa, these chemical surges are very powerful and after a while, it will wear you out.
What you described in your post is a very common experience, essentially, you went from running on the treadmill, to running in the olympics. You mind simply can’t cope with such extremes. You need time to slowly build up your ability to deal with these powerful mental conditions. You also need a proper technical strategy to deal with you trading, i.e., stop losses, take profit targets, signals when to get in and out, how to read the market, etc. You also need a psychological strategy to accompany your technical strategy, i.e., warm up mentally before you trade, sit down and read the markets and anticipate the various ways you can react if such and such happens, how to remain calm and objective, how to walk away if your mind gets clouded and the list goes on.
The fact that you still have money in your account is a good thing. Many people, including myself learned the hard way by blowing up our accounts. Expensive lessons.
So, like some people have said here, take a break, it does not mean don’t trade, just stop, back off for a bit and realize that you were very lucky to not have lost money. When you get back to trading, use a small amount where it would not impact you so hard psychologically, micro lots are great. Also, have a solid uncomplicated strategy that you can apply regularly over time.
We all start off trading lured by the prospects of huge money, but those who survive the explosions of their own minds or accounts, and continue to trade, will tell you that trading then becomes about being equanimous in the hurricane of change as well as consistent in their ability and stability of their own minds. Two totally different goals.
So I wish you great luck (which you seem to have), take a step back, breathe, reflect and go back in slower and wiser and in the long run you will be a profitable trader. Cheers!