LGM-30 Minuteman is the Land Component of the Nuclear Triad (1 of 3)
This represents the informal logs of my Trading Journey. Apart from commentary, this specific journal (1 of 3) is focused on my personal views and perspectives as I go through my Trading journey.
2025.08.25 SNAPCOUNT has been initiated. Please standby for updates.
Minuteman (Journal 1 of 3 Journals): Personal Development Journal
2025.08.27 Why nuclear? Why atomic? Why the nuclear triad?
Recently, my life took a nosedive and my finances with it (more on this soon). I was broken. I fell into shadow and despair…
After regaining my composure and fully committing to getting back up, I wanted to rebuild and restore what I have lost (so to speak).
I want to make a MASSIVE change in my life. The change I seek is something that not only requires a massive amount of time and effort, but also a massive amount of resources.
Trading is one of the fields that disappeared during my fall from grace. Having been a trader in previous years, I am no stranger to the power and potential of trading to change one’s life. There is no other metaphor I see that can describe the potential of Trading as the word: NUCLEAR.
This shall be one of my weapons to turn this ship around and change things for the better. You could say, I’m going to make a BANG to get things started back on track.
Trading is not just a career or a business. It’s like nuclear energy. It can be a powerful tool to build and a magnificent weapon to wield.
In the words of Oppenheimer quoting the Bhagavad Gita: “Now I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds”.
So, with that goal in mind, let’s get started. 
Minuteman (Journal 1 of 3 Journals): Personal Development Journal
2025.09.01 The Deluge
In ancient cultures around the world, we find myths and legends of a “Great Flood” that wiped out humanity and the world - basically an all-consuming flood that RESET the world.
From the Sumerians, Judaism, Hinduism, Christianity, and even indigenous cultures and religions, this “Great Flood” has become part of literature and tradition.
Unfortunately, I went through something similar…
Towards the end of 2021: COVID Infection. I was put under quarantine and had limited to no internet access during my quarantine. I had open trades with some paper profits on them. Since they were on the green, i nicked all the stop losses, intending to watch them closely manually. Big mistake. Quarantine prevented my access to my portfolio. Also, being really sick, money was the least of my concerns.
2022 came in with a BANG. Upon release from my quarantine, i found out why my family wasn’t visiting me in the hospital (which was heartbreaking). I found out they got infected with COVID too and were all blaming me for it. My elderly parents got to severe / critical condition (which was already heavy on my heart) and the fact that they blamed me for it made things way harder. My aunts/ uncles and cousins got the bug too but they were more supportive and optimistic. I got to live in my uncle’s house’s spare visitor room for a full month instead of the family home i grew up in.
I broke up with my girlfriend back then who not once visited me during my quarantine nor during my release and stay in my uncle’s spare visitor room. She always had an excuse even when lockdown and restrictions were already lifted a month later. I always supported and helped her (even financially) but apparently she cannot be bothered for this little show of support. It was even more heartbreak but you can see all the redflags there.
I had no time to rest as I was the taxation expert and the company was facing an open case with the tax people. Besides, my medical certificate already says I’m discharged so if i wanna keep my job, I have to pick up the pace. Despite just recovering and still going through multiple hearbreaks, I had to MAN UP and get $h1t done.
By the end of March, I finally got back to my senses and reopened my trading accounts. I was MASSIVELY in the RED! It took me a day for everything to sink in and come to terms with what happened and what needs to be done. I cut the losses. They were massive - the amounts I cut were equivalent to 80% of my “Global Funds” portfolio and equivalent to 40% of my total portfolio (Assets invested everywhere). It was like losing an arm and a leg! 
The rest of the year was silent rebuilding and reorganizing. November of 2022 up to February of 2023 was 110% towards my day job as I worked for a promotion with new duties and responsibilities.
By March of 2023, i received my promotion and had new responsibilities. I tried my best to save up as much as I could from my salaries to put into my investments and my trading.
By October of 2023, I felt i was ready to get back into the dating game again. By the end of October, I had a new muse! 
December of 2023. Our relationship entailed openness and honesty. She knew about my story (especially #5) and she disagreed with my trading and instead encouraged me to pursue more conservative investments. I agreed and followed my beloved.
August of 2025 Everything was going good with the new relationship… until it wasn’t. It was 2024 when she moved in with me. She didn’t earn as much as me so I had to shoulder most of our common expenses. Our “household” expenses was split 80-20 most of the time. I didn’t mind that because i truly loved her and wanted to provide for her. We had our disagreements and fights sometimes but we managed to work them out (most of the time a compromise on my part).
We had our ups and downs but we always managed to work them out one way or another. But this time, we couldn’t…
Her jealous friends (jealous of our relationship) began to manipulate her. I didn’t know it at the time but my sources told me much later. These girl friends (her bestfriend Cherry and Bea) were cheating on their boyfriends and were miserable.
They made up rumours that I was seeing someone else. Hollup, I spend 8 AM to 7 PM at work, I spend virtually 80% to 90% of my net salary mostly on “us” and if i ever get anything “extra” from my investments, I’d get her something special as a gift or treat her out. I had neither the time or money for another woman - a mistress.
No matter how I tried to defend my honour, my girlfriend chose to believe them instead of trusting in our love.
On the 11th of August, 2025, she broke up with me. I’ve been trying to win her back and exert more effort to convince her of how my love is true… but she seems too far gone in the web of lies her friends have made.
I’ve spent countless nights crying myself to sleep. I’ve spent countless days trying to woo her and convince her. I’ve spent so much time and money trying to repair the damage caused by their false witness… but to no avail. She’s already moved out and blocked me on all her socials and contacts. Her other friends have also been sworn to secrecy so I have truly no way to find her to attempt to fix things.
So on this day, it’s apparently no longer up to me. It is now in God’s Hands… 
Nonetheless, we hope and keep an open door for her (should she have a change of heart) but let it not stop my pursuit of the markets.
After 40 days and 40 nights (and an extra 7), a dove brought Noad an olive leaf. At long last, Noah found DRY LAND, marking the end of the journey… and NEW BEGINNINGS.
This is me stepping off my “ark”. Let’s call it my Second Life.
Here i come.
Minuteman (Journal 1 of 3 Journals): Personal Development Journal
2025.09.08 Testing or Redirection?
They say that before you level up, you get tested. You get challenged by the Universe or God or whatever Higher Power you believe in because they want to see (and make sure) you are ready for the challenges of the next level.
But, they also say that sometimes, the Universe or God sends stumbling blocks your way as a method of redirection. Sometimes, things are made out of your reach because they are not going to do good for you in the long run or they may go against the Plans of the Higher Power watching over you.
So… what now?
Kittycat is confused! 
Am I being challenged to push harder or am I being persuaded to change my course?
This certainly needs some discernment!
Why am I talking about this? I noticed a pattern! When I would be pursuing trading, there’s always some sort of obstacle: Whether it’s a challenge or a distraction.
It’s a challenge when it weighs me down, it’s a distraction when it nudges my attention elsewhere.
Now that I’ve restarted my efforts to study the markets again… well, life events start to linger and happen all around me once more. 
So dear Universe, I ask you now: is this challenge meant to test my worthiness of this next level? Or are you telling me to put my head elsewhere? 
How about you, reader? What does the Universe say when challenges arise?
May you break resistances, and reach new highs! ;3
