Hey Don, you may be right, Im not a follower, I make my own rules, I dont follow others advise, I look for a way, but my way… I guess Im just to egotistical to follow others, or even work with others… I do think I know it all, at least, if I have stumbled on it in the past… I wouldnt give advice if I knew nothing of it…
Im a fast learner, a self starter, and a perfectionist, a leader, a motivator…
I strive to be the best at everything I do… In Forex, I believe its necessary to think outside the box, while the 97% sit in it, like mimes…
I didnt go thru the pips school, I learned everything thru watching the charts… So Im more of a intuition trader, and 99% of the time im right, but what that has created is, the " it will come back" syndrome… Where I think Im still right, and move my stop, and then, well, we know whats next…
I lack routine preparation, such as morning routine, pre-forcast, and just started watching the calender. I wake up, and within 30 seconds, I could be in a trade, and its sickening… I admit that… " Hi, Im MoneyNVRSleeps, and im a forexaholic", lol… Its bad… And I know it is…
But Ive seen sooooooooooooooooooooo much action, its almost like, tiein a shoe… Its that 1 dang trade… Fear of losing? Haaaaaaa, I dont know… Yes, and no… The perfectionist part dont help, because I want to always be right… I recently challenged myself to see what I could do with 100 trades… I went something like 144-3… Some might remember that here… Anyways, the 3 loses, werent even my fault, it was the lag from PC to platform, because I use tight trail stops of 1.5 pips… But what it proves is, even beyond my control, I still cant be perfect…
That was using MT4…
I hate Java, and I think thats my problem, and is stressing me out… MT4 just pulls my focus more… But Im using Java, because Im trading with a $6 account…
So, Im now going to be strictly mt4, just cutting out the frustration of Oanda Java, as head scratching it might seem to you, its a solution to some of my stress…
I lake disapline, and I need to stop rationalizing with myself when trades go bad…
The sad thing is, Im not wrong very often, but I shoot myself in the foot time after time after time…
The good thing is, I have only lost under $200 in almost 3 years of learning… I learned some very valuable things, Ive been seering the pain of the outcomes of the stop moves, I felt the frustration of going on tilt, with real money, albeit on a small level, but still, the pain was there…
My objective is to be right, and be right often then not… You play, to win, the game.
Tell you what Don, If I dont turn the corner between now, and Oct 1, I’ll call YOU, and listen to what you have to say…
I think Im close, and I want to test the deep waters with what I have compiled to this juncture… I think I have the proper tools, and my trading ability is prime to take the next step… If I fail, I will except, and for once in my life, and this is serious, reach out for help… Go thru my forum posts, I never asked more then 1 question…
Im going about this next new week, totally differant… From morning preperation of the mind, waking up, jumpin jacks, coffee, and NO forex… Then, when I feel ready, Ill sit down, and go to work, and hopefully be done with-in 10-15 minutes… My fastest day under 5 minutes… Thats about where I want to be. Just sit down, stare at the screen for a steady 5 minutes, jump in, jump out, done… With the amount of margin I use, maxed usually, I need only 15 pips.
Don, we’ll see what happens… Have a great night.