I am sorry to hear that. Now would be a good time to take a 24 or 48 hour break away from all things trading. After a calming down, I hope the next bit may be of some use to you.
This is my fourth time around in Forex since 1988. I have spent almost a year writing a trading plan. It is not complete and is already 90 pages long. When reading this post what came to my mind was “money management”, so I went to my trading plan and did a text search for “money management” for which I found 42 entries. That is how important it is. I won’t go into War and Peace here, but two summaries that may help you in future, and from which I have copied from others are:
Plan actions, in order of importance are:
Money management
Trading Psychology
Technical analysis
Below is a dump of the first four of my list of over 50 trading rules associated with Money Management.
Rule, statement, action (or plan validation). These are what I refer to as a Requirements Traceability Matrix, from classical project management methodology, and for each trading plan I complete, I will compare it with all 50 odd of these rules, a list of habits, elimination definitions and algorithm definitions.
• Rules definitions = R1, R2, etc
• Habits definitions = H1, H2, etc
• Elimination definitions = E1, E2, etc
• Algorithm definitions = A1, A2, etc
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If it does not conform to all requirements, it will not become a trading plan that I put into practice.
Selected rules as an example:
R4
Apply money management techniques to your trading.
See Money Management section of Plan but basically apply 2% of Forex bank unless special rules dictate otherwise
R9
Don’t just trade the volatile contracts
Understand and account for the volatility of each pair with use of ATR first part of Algorithm. Addresses Money Management.
R14
Have a disciplined, detailed trading plan for each trade. i.e., entry, objective, exit, with no changes unless hard data changes.
Disciplined money management means intelligent trading allocation and risk management. The overall objective is end-of-year bottom line, not each individual trade. Validate in the trading strategy and plan content. Use the trade journal from entry onwards. Validate with Money Management section of Plan
R17
Trade with a plan-not with hope, greed, or fear. Plan where you will get in the market, how much you will risk on the trade, and where you will take your profits
Refer to the Algorithm. Validate in the entry criteria and journal. Money Management, trailing stops and exit criteria on daily basis.
R36
When you open an account with a broker, don’t just decide on the amount of money, decide on the length of time you should trade.
This approach helps you conserve your equity, and helps avoid the Las Vegas approach of ‘Well, I’ll trade till my stake runs out.’ Experience shows that many who have been at it over a long period of time end up making money. Validate with money management plan